I'm working on a new skin (doing all the coding myself, of course!) and so...yeah. Once I get that up, it'll be part of my larger site (which currently is here
, and doesn't look like much, but the portfolio site
looks pretty fantastic, even if the major parts are missing -- works best in laaaaaaarge resolutions, such as 1400x1050). I'll also post on a more regular basis, you can believe me.
The url will still be what it is now, but I'll change the actual title to "Journey" to go with my portfolio site's theme, "Footprints". The design will be the front of a car, and you'll navigate by clicking the different lights, sort of like the toes of my portfolio site.
I am working on a new website. When it's up, the address will be www.freewebs.com/jesir.html, but don't go there now, because there's nothing there. I'm trying to figure out IMAGE MAPS of DOOMEY DOOM, and it's not goin' so well. No.
Other than that, nothing's really happening...I just had my grandparents over, and I'm going to Montana next week...other than that, nothing.
Have a great father's day weekend!!!I'm only writing this because I knew Jacob would make fun of me since I was telling him to update his and mine hasn't been updated in forever. :D
Well, school's out. I'm happy about that.
I don't know what-all I'll be doing this summer -- I'm definitely going to Montana and to Cedarville engineering camp. I'm really looking forward to engineering camp.
I'm also looking for a job -- I need to get a new amp (currently looking on eBay, found a Line 6 Flextone III to watch/bid on -- hopefully I can get that for a huge bargain) and I'm going to go over to McGuire's Music today to mess around, see if I can maybe trade in my old one (Dean Markley K-15 9W -- no wonder I can't hear myself, lol).
I'm listening to "The Goatee Speaks!", which is Mr. Harmless's podcast. WHEE Mr. Harmless! That's fun.
Oh, and I had Emily, Daniel, Jacob, and the Pablo over for random Pride and Prejudice watching. Paul and Daniel got here early, so Mom shooed all of us out of the house to go take a walk. So I decided to show them the awesome house of castleness -- this really huge house in our neighborhood. I took them up there, and we looked at it, and we started to start down these random steps that led up to it -- and this lady comes out of the house and tells us (in this very British accent; that was kinda cool) that we're tresspassing. Which we weren't -- there was a little street that led up to it and had a couple of other houses on it, and there were no "NO TRESSPASSING" signs. So we got told to stay on the steps while she went and got a camera. That was kinda freaky. And then while we were watching the movie, we had a gumball fight and I broke a glass. Or maybe it was Jacob. SO we stopped fighting with gumballs. Yay.
Look! It's me! Aren't I gorgeous? (lol...not really) I have a demented camera, and it never takes eyes right -- hence the zombieness. I decided that glasses were evil, so I didn't wear them...which apparenty makes me look completely different. I think it's something to be saved for very special occasions, so you won't see me with contacts anytime soon. Anyways.
Okay, I just described the whole experience in detail to Jacob in an e-mail, so I'll just copy and paste.
I went to Emily's house at like 1:30 after school got out and we made COOKIES. We made a giant cookie. It was really big. And then, after Natalie came, we went to go get Emily's hair done. After that was done -- she was really cute and her hair was allllll curly -- we went back to Emily's house to get ready. Natalie did my hair -- it ended up being straight, b/c my hair generally doesn't do curly -- and we had lots of random fun putting makeup on. By that time, it was 5:15, and the boys (and my mom) were coming at 5:30! It was quite a race to get our dresses on before they came. *fastforward through a boring hour* Okay, 6:30 -- banquet time. All the girls were wearing absolutely gorgeous dresses, and all the guys looked mostly okay. J.P. had gotten me a corsage that actually matched (a miracle) and was really awesome. So we had food -- it was a pasta buffet with a chef that cooked your food while you watched, which was awesome. Then we had an improv comedy thing, which was funny, and then senior wills and junior prophecies (Sam Liedtke actually got to do a senior will -- I thought that was awesome). Then Pastor Helmer talked and then there was a slideshow and Titus Justice played. Then it was over. Justin drove me and Emily back to Emily's house (Bob drove Natalie) and then left to go place. The three of us changed and watched the new Pride and Prejudice (with Matthew Macfayden as Mr. Darcy...yay!) and then lounged around and took pictures. I drove home at around 2AM. YAY!
YAY look at us. Aren't we gorgeous? (Lol, I look like retarded or something. I always tilt my head for pictures -- no idea why.) And so patriotic and sparkley, too! Wow! Emily's hair was sooo gorgeous. (I think it's awesome that God gave us hair to play with -- we'd get sooo bored after a while if we didn't have any.)
Crazy awesome song
Yodeling is HOT.
Oh, and I found a band called The Bacon Brothers. For some reason, I immediately thought of Robbie Summer. :P
I've been having an odd week...okay, a horrible week. Thanks to everyone who had to put up with me and my crappy attitude. Especially Jacob, Paul, and Daniel -- thanks so much, guys. You really make my day whenever I'm having a bad one. (Hold it....Hold it.....HOLD IT......HOLD IT...HOLD IT!!!!
Haha, good times, good times...)
And then my dress came yesterday!! I have like three horrible photos of it for all of you to see...behold me! In all my dubious glory! Yay me.
And everyone, Jacob Johnson is now a licensed driver...so cower in fear -- death is imminent!!! (J/k...) Everyone say congratulations to him. YAY!!!
I don't enjoy driving. I'm not very good at it, in the fist place (I accidentally -- ACCIDENTALLY!!! ACCIDENTALLY!!! - ran a red light [my glasses make everything look farther away, and sometimes I overcompensate])...and it's so DANGEROUS. One of my best friends died in a car accident over the summer). And I'm not allowed to practice very much -- I got in trouble for going to Chik-Fil-A after school. Ah well.
I'm freaking out about my dress -- I ordered it about two weeks ago, and it hasn't got here yet...and it's supposed to have been shipped within five business days. >.< Eek. Anyways.
Other than that, I'm having a nice life. He of the Poofey Hair was being horrible today, and so was the One of Doom. They kept stealing my stuff. Meh. And then laughing at me when I didn't notice. >.<
YAY Easter. Christ is RISEN!!! W00t!
Anyways. So we went down to Kentucky for Easter, to have fun with all my relatives. And it was indeed fun. I got a new awesome skirt, which I'm wearing tomorrow, and I got to talk to two of my (three) cousins for the first time in a long time. It was fun.
And then I had allergies. Allergies are doom. But anyways.
I've been trying to read the Bible regularly...and I've been finding a lot of really cool verses in the Psalms. Most of them are over there --> but not all of them will fit. I really reccomend reading through Psalms -- it's a great book, full of really uplifting scripture.
Okay, like I said I'm going to Jr/Sr with J.P. So...here's my dress. I like it a lot...it's really fun.
Soo, in other news, not much is happening...I'm working on trig, and stuff. And I cleaned out my history binder, just for the shock factor it'll give Paul, Jacob, and Daniel. I can't wait to see their faces!! ^.^
Have a nice day everyone!!
Okay. Nobody faint here, okay? >.<
I'm going to Jr/Sr with J.P.
*sigh* Okay. Now all of you know that. (nod) And I have my dress all planned.
That was probably the hardest decision I'll have to make all year...sooooo many different factors involved. THANK YOU, O thou One of Poofy Hair, for being who you are. It helps. :)
AND andandand I got my drivers' lisence. Now, if I can just convince my dad to stop driving my car....
Longest week of my life...
I was looking at my blog and I noticed that the last time I posted was on the 24th...I was like "Wait, what? I posted five days
ago? I don't remember doing that..." Last week was totally the longest week of my life; it felt like a month in and of itself. We had play practice every single day -- Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday all seemed like two days in and of themselves, because of the play practice. On Monday, I think we went through the entire thing twice -- once for us and once for lighting. Tuesday, we went through the entire thing plus makeup and beards and costumes -- the beards kept falling off -- Joel's was off by the fifth scene or something, it was funny. Wednesday we got out of school to do it for the elementaries, which was fun. Thursday and Friday were performance days -- I have soo many pictures from those days. Saturday was too. Play was so much fun -- there is no way I'm missing out on it next year. No. Way.
In other random life, I'm getting my drivers' lisence tomorrow. Yay! And...yeah. Stuff. My life isn't that interesting right now. Fun, but not interesting. *shrug*
Have a nice day!!
Ennh, yeah, I'm a bit stressed right now...
So yeah, play practice is going well...I have two tests to study for today, and a lot of Spanish sentences to write, so I'm'a go now.
Have a nice day everyone.
...yeah, I watched Invader Zim DVDs until like 2:30 last night. Or this morning, or whatever. And then I'm in the process of watching them again. So right now I'm thinking in Zim mode. It's annying. Meh.
So today, I froze my fingers off...well, it felt like I froze them off. It was soo freakin' cold today and we had a nerf war scheduled so...COLDNESS!!!!! It ABOUNDS!!! In DOOMY QUANTITIES!!! ....yeah. Jacob, Paul, Chris and I about froze. It was fun. We played capture the sock (we didn't have a flag, so we used a sock) and it was really really funny because our team (me, Trevor, and Daniel) had the playground side and their team (Sam, Brandon, Jacob, and Paul) had the soccer field. All we had to do was tell Daniel "Go get their sock" and he was like "Okay" so he sprinted off barefoot across the muddy field, dodged all of the other team, grabbed their sock, and sprinted back. Trever and I just watched and laughed. It was so funny.
Randomest gifts ever...
Yeah, this christmas I have been getting IMMENSELY RANDOM gifts. Such as...Paul gave me socks (??????? I think his mom made him...) and Jacob gave me a LIGHTSABER!!!!! and Daniel gave me a pen with a little miniature game of chess in it (the pieces are SOOOO CUTE!!!!!!!) so...many gifts of randomness. YAY FOR RANDOM!!!
But seriously, that lightsaber was soo random. And I am very happy with it.
Off to write thank-you notes...meh. Hey, still fun. :D
From at skool
Yes, I am in the very interesting location of "at skool", and I'm in a study hall that happens to be located at skool and also in a computer lab. Yay for computer labs.
Anywhoo...I got my PSAT/SOMEOTHERLETTERSHERE scores back, and I did pretty well (although not as well as Paul -- Emily Helmer and I agreed that he must have a little man sitting in his brain telling him all the answers because noone can actually be that smart)...I got got in the top 2 percent overall, even though I was in the top 1% for math and also for critical reading. And it's soo weird because in the writing skills section I missed all the ones that Paul missed (and also some more because of stupid mistakes...I made like three really really really really really really really really really stupid mistakes), which was really odd. Yes. It was. And yeah, I'm happy with how I did. Although I could have done quite a bit better. Meh.
Anyways, I have nothing better to do (which is why I'm doing this) so I shall...write about the past few days. Monday I don't really remember much about, except for that I went to worship practice and it was fun. And I geve one of my friends a bow hair for Christmas (he says that he's gonna give me a lump of coal -- he will hurt VERY BADLY if he does) and yeah, it was fun. Tuesday I got to talk to the dad of one of my friends and that was cool. Wednesday was a very bad day and I don't want to think about it stop saying words. Except for we did get to watch parts of ROTK during Physics YAY FUN. Thursday is today and it is being a good day so far. Although I have been hit on the head more than I like (Jacob hit me on the head with his PSAT/OTHERLETTERS and Paul hit me on the head with his hand and also his PSAT/OTHERLETTERS and J.P. hit me on the head with his hand and so did Emily [as in my LEETUL SEESTUR]).
Anyways. Have a nice day everyone!!
(that only took me about five minutes...meh.)
The dating thing cont.
For some reason, I have in the past few days become totally converted to the Blake view on dating.. (You'll have to go to Hannah's blog to get to Trevor's because I don't have his URL memorized.) At this point, friendships are way more important me than a dating relationship. If the guy I like asked me out, I would tell him to go think about what he's doing, if not outright tell him no. (be forewarned, you) I value that friendship (if you leave the "r" out of "friendship" it becomes a very funny word) way too much to risk jeapordizing it. I know that there's not very much chance that I will actually marry someone that I know in high school (I mean, think about it. I'm 15. It's about 5-10 years before I'll get married, if not more. That's a pretty long time) so it'd be better not to have to hurt anyone by dating them and then having to break up with them. *shrug*
The dating thing...
Continuing on with all the stuff written about dating by the Blake brothers...
There is also an area in between dating and not dating that is very iffy -- it carries all the emotions and stuff of dating but none of the actual commitment. This can be both a bad thing and a good thing. It can be bad because, if one of the people turns out to be a total jerk (I'm not saying you are...in fact, you're kind of the complete opposite...[and if you have noo clue what I'm talking about, I probably don't mean you
]) then when they get tired of it, they don't have anything really keeping them there...I mean, I look at dating or being in a dating relationship as being at least a small
bit of commitment. Not like marriage or anything, but it is
It can also be a good thing. For one, you have more time to spend with God if you're not always going out with that person. (What is going out anyways? My youth group can't really figure it out...) You still know that you are extremely special to someone, but they don't take time away from God (unless you have Problems in your thought life). Maybe this works for me because...well...IHATEPHONESSTOPSAYINGWORDS, and also I'm not really allowed to call boys (besides for homework stuff and unless it's Brandon) and he doesn't have IM, but hey. Secondly, if you're really, really determined to stay friends with the person, just friends and nothing more, even though you "like" them, it generally eliminates some of the other problems (i.e. the physical temptation, the "sharing too much" [although that does happen occasionally, but hey, I'm working on it...], and most of Trevor's harms, actually). Thirdly, it also immensely confuses people, which is rather amusing to watch. Fourthly, you get to know that particular person better and find out whether or not you would ever want to date/court (and even potentially marry) that person. (NO, you, I'm not trying to insinuate something.)
So...yeah. Just wanted add that. :D
Have a nice day!! :D
Okeyday, so there were two very funny things that happened to my penguin last week.
First of all, I already told y'all that Jon Benson had stolen my penguin, no? He had tod me that he had burned it, and then Liz benson tried to tell me the same thing...so on Tuesday, he brought this bag of ASHES and gave it to me during before homeroom. It was soo funny because he handed me this bag...which had "PENGUIN" written on it...it very nearly fooled me because Joel (Jon's brother) came up and said, "You wouldn't believe how hot we had to get the coals before it would burn!" which kinda scared me. But I eventually got it back, because Emily Helmer noticed it in Jon's bag. Do you know, that's actually the first real prank anyone's ever pulled on me...that is, the first one that actually required doing something...anyways.
Then on Wednesday (I think) my friend Tony took the Penguin from my locker for some random reason. Then he gave it to my friend Jacob, who put it in his locker. Then he tried to make me give him a dollar because Tony owed him money. It made for one of the more humorous arguments I've had in quite a while.
Welp, currently I've got half of the Benson siblings after me...
But anyways. Yeah, it's been a very random week so far. I think. I don't know. Yeah, my brain turned off at like seven tonight...but anyways. I watched Episode Three on Saturday at Brandon's house...got IM'd by Matt Trilus (which was immensely disturbing)...and did some other random stuff...and on Sunday we had church (lol, for the LONGEST time I couldn't remember what I did Sunday morning...I feel like an idiot now)...and then we had relatives...and then I talked to Jon and/or Liz for the better part of five hours (I think...I talked to Jon for something like 2 hrs, not sure how long I talked to Liz, but it was a while)...and Jon has my penguin...he had better remember it...and this is a really loooong sentance...I like it...I think the rest of my blog is going to be it...soo, I don't think anything exciting happened...nope, didn't...well, that's it...goodbye...
I feel like posting a song.I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me
Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory
You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful
OHH, ohohoh and andandand I got the fiddler part!!! Sooooo excited!! Can't wait to start learning the music!!!
I have decided some things:
1. My little sister can be a brat, but she can also be pretty cool.
2. My mom's classroom is AWESOME!!!
3. I want the part of the fiddler in this year's play.
4. I have a moderately large chance of becoming the fiddler, because only Joel and Abbie and I play a stringed instrument, and both of them are terrific actors -- I'm not.
5. I forgot what I was going to say.
Right now, I'm reading Red vs. Blue transcripts. Because I'm stingy and don't wanna have to pay ten bucks for something that will be confiscated anyways.
And they are really funny. (There IS some "language" though...)
Anyways. Life is good right now. Jocob and J.P. were being sooo weird today...they decided that they wanted to walk around me in circles. Which...made me dizzy. That was disturbing. But it was funny, because I decided to go lean against the wall and they were doing semicircles...
Teenage boys are WEIRD.
Yeah, I had soooo much fun Saturday night...I went to this youth group activity with one of my friends who I hadn't really talked to for a couple weeks and we had sooo much fun. (At least, I did...I don't know if he did or not, lol.) It was this corn maze and we got sooo lost...and then we did it again in the DARK...soo much fun. *nodnod* And there were baby animals. Yay for baby animals.
Mmmm...I wore my purple knee socks today...OOO!! And I got to play my ELECTRIC VIOLIN (yeah, you read that right, it's electric -- W00T!!) through Jacob's amp. It was hilarious, because Jacob and his dad were like doing all this weird stuff to the amp's effects stuff...and I was just kind of playing with this enormous grin....funfunfun. *bounce* Yeah, the entire praise team just kinda went electric. Lol. I ahd my electric violin, Jacob had his electric guitar, and Brady Garrison had his electric bass (not the fish). Soo fun. Only I couldn't hear myself most of the time...but who cares? It was fun anyways!!
I loove being cheerful all the time!! (or most of the time, anyways lol) It helps sooo much with like random life stuff. See, if I wasn't cheerful all the time, I would...be sad sometimes...and being sad isn't fun. So be cheerful and you'll have more fun? Lol I became incoherent.
Shutting up now, lol...
Right now I'm talking to a russian alien named Glomey about Indian food.
Aren't I awesome? :D
It's raining today!
I'm sitting here, talking to a couple peoples on dA...
Have a nice day everyone!!
I've got a mystery song stuck in my head, I think it's by ZOEgirl. Not quite sure though.
I added a lot more links (I stole the code from Rachelle's blog b/c I was too lazy to type it, lol) but some of them I don't know who they are. (Who is G-knee anyways? O_o)
Have a nice day! :D
I feel like posting a lot today...
So, my dad's at a golf tournament for school right now. Yeah.
I saw a pretty funny thing happen! We have gutter-type things on the sides of the street where I live, and they currently have water in them. So this little bug comes out of the grass and scuttles down into the gutter. As soon as he touches the water, he flees back into the grass!! It was sooooo funny!
And right now I'm kinda-sorta reading a Lord Peter Wimsey mystery, called Clouds of Witness. Only I can't reach it right now, and I'm too lazy to try. Meh.
Listening to Petra again...
I feel like posting a picture. It's one of me goofing around with the rose my mom got for Mothers' Day. I was doing the thing that the girl in Shrek does, y'know, with the rose in her teeth? (my word, it's taking forever to load...I suppose I'll just type another paragraph while I'm waiting...ooop, done.)
Have a nice weekend everyone!
"Mirror, Mirror on the wall, Have I got it?
'Cause Mirror you've always told me who I am
I'm finding it's not easy to be perfect
So sorry you won't define me
Sorry you don't own me
Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try
Mirror I am seeing a new reflection
I'm looking into the eyes of He who made me
And to Him I have beauty beyond compare
I know He defines me
You don't define me, you don't define me"
Yay for Hannah's blog, which has that song on it!!
And also thank you to Jacob, who sent me the most HILARIOUS song...it's SOO FUNNY!!! Only it isn't funny without the tune, so I won't bother to put it up.
So have a nice day everyone!! :D
"This is life as we knowwwww ittttttttttt...."
I have that song on repeat right now...THANK YOU JACOB!!! :D
So today was a good day. Through the efforts of myself and another person, we got an extremely awkward situation sorted. And I had the PENGUIN!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!
I stayed at school til about 5 PM, actually! It was pretty fun. I took a physics test, graded Spanish 1 quizzes for Mrs. Peacock (I drew a penguin on Matt Trilus's and wrote "G.B. The one-who-is-NOT-evil" bc he seems to think I'm evil...weirdo) and then Mrs. Peacock and I plotted EVIL SOMETHINGS!!! (I'm not allowed to tell evil whats...) But that was fun. I love Spanish teachers -- they're soooooo much fun!!
I think that's all I have to day today...
"Never perfect, but perfectly forgiven; finding courage to get up again..."
I was getting fed up with pink, so I just kinda got a different color!! I'm gonna hafta mess w/ the tagboard still tho...
"It's a beautiful daaaaaaaaaayyyy..." (yes, I know, again...but that's how I feel today!!!)
It's a beautiful DAAAAAY!!!!!!
It is now, earlier it was THUNDERSTORMING.
I-STEPS ARE OVER!!!!!!! *bounce* That is like SOOO COOL!!!!
Anyways, I'm in typing class right now and I'm typing on my blog...rather obviously...and I'm having FUN.
So far, I'm having a goooooood daaaaay.
It's a beautiful daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy...
Sky falls, it feels like
It's a beautiful daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy...
Don't let it get awayyyyyyyy...
HAVE A NICE *insert applicable time span here*!!
"And I'm good, good, good to gooooooooooo..."
Relient K today.
"And I'm good good good to goooooooo...
And I'm good good good to goooooooo...
Gotta get away,
Get away from all of my mistakes..."
And I made a pretty big one today. (Jacob, if you're reading this, I'M SORRY!!!! O_o I didn't think...)
"And I so hate consequences..."
Lol, Mr. H-less did a post on this the other day. They who hate correction are stupid, sayeth the Bible. So I suppose this is God's way to think about what you say first...
Could you please pray that I get this straightened out? THANK YOU!! (all 0 of you people who read it, lol...)
HAVE A NICE *insert applicable time span*!!!
"Howww willllll thiiiiiiis liiiiiiiiife ennnnnnnnd?"
"How does the story end? Where does the time go?
How does the story end? All we really wanna know
Howwwwww willllll thiiiiis liiiiiife ennnnnnnd?"
I don't feel like being hyper today, so...yeah...
I got out of taking my Physics test tomorrow b/c of Isteps!! That's always fun!!!
And I hit Daniel on the head with a corn dog (it was in its wrapper SICK-OS!!!) today!! But only because he mentioned the DREADED MINERAL. And then he SACRELIGED my other corndog...that was RATHER ANNOYING.
...and now I'm hyper. Lovely!
I-steps again tomorrow!! Yuck!! And that means I don't have art...Hey, Maybe we'll get out late again today, and I'll get to miss Trig! That would be FUN!!!
"Can I get a new heaaaad? Cause the one I've got
Is worn out and so very brokkkken..."
HAVE A NICE DAY!!!
"It's allllll abooouuuuuuut whooooooo you knoooooow..."
Petra again! "Who You Know" Yay!!
...well, it is...whether or not if you know Christ or not! Lol. But literally, that's what it is.
"Noooooothing we doooooooo herrrrrrre beeeeeeeeelooooooow willlll saaaaaaave ussssssss..."
Played in chapel today...got my picture taken (LARA...) I had fun, actually. I got to talk to Jacob muchness more than usual. That was fun.
Ah, hmm...OH YEAH!! Mr. Trilus poked me in the NECK today. He was trying to get pastel on me, but he was like, "oops, used the wrong hand" :? Such an IDIOT. Lol j/k Matt's pretty cool. Only his last name should have two L's instead of one. Kachunk!! the ctrl+b thing doesn't do the < b> thing, it does some weird thing. Only w/o spaces.
Lol, that was random.
I have informed Paul that if he messes up mah hair, he gets to redo it. That sounds like a fun arrangement...he thinks that it would look REALLY WRONG (which it would, and that's one way to make sure he doesn't!! :D).
I had a good day today.
HAVE A NICE TOMORROW!!!
"you have frieeeeeeends in high plaaaaces..."
"Gonna belieeeeve in the prooooooomise, 'It's alllll goooood...'"
The Song of the Day: Would'a Should'a Could'a by Petra!!!
"Would'a, should'a, could'a done this and that
Don't wanna live life with anooother regret
Would'a, should'a, could'a made anoooother choice
I can see more the older I get
Would'a, should'a, could'a said sooomething more
But it's too late - there's a knock at the dooor
Would'a, should'a, could'a won't change a thiiing
The heeere and now is waaaaaaaaaaiiiiting..."
Now back to your regularly scheduled blog.
Last week was fun!! I got to talk to my friends more than usual, I did good on my spanish test, I got to make BIG RED X'S ON POOR SPANISH ONE STUDENTS' TESTS!!! YAHOO!!! and I got to have FUNNNNNN!!!
"I want to live my live not thinking only of the paaaaaaaaaast..."
My scheduled randomness of the week: PURPLE KNEE SOCKS. (Lol, scheduled randomness is an oxymoron. That's amusing. I should sooo make that my blog subtitle.)
"The future tells me that my lot has not been caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaast..."
Have a nice day!!!
Firefox died on me...O_o
Now I have to redo all my bookmarks.
And I'm currently very disturbed. O_o
"And I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..."
" Cause after all that's come and gone
I know that You'll be holding on to me
And I belieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeve
That when I'm feeling all alone
That's when I'll be leaning on Your loooooovvvvvvvve...la de da de da de da...lalala..."
No seriously. It really goes "la de da de da...lalala..." HONESTLY!!
I had a good day today!! *bounce* And right now I'm HYPER because I had a Mountain Dew after school and caffiene makes me hyper. *boing* HYPERHYPERHYPER!!!
Aaaaaaaaaanyways. Spanish test today, and I remembered what "left" is in spanish!! GO ME!!! *bounce* So I was happy. I think I got everything right, except I couldn't remember the word for "wall" so I put the word for "chalkboard" instead. Yeah.
OH and Jacob drew this CRAZY AWESOME CARTOON THINGAMABOBBER and it was TEH FUNNY. Yeah!! And Paul pulled my ponytail (duh!) and Emily lost one of my books >:( but she found it again :) and then...ummm...I forgot what I was gonna say...
I hate Jump5. *hits the skip button* Much better...or not...*hits it again* OK, better. dcTalk is pretty cool. *nodnod*
Have a nice day!!
"And this week the trend..."
...WAS TO NOT WAKE UP 'TIL THREE PM
WASTED THE FEW CONSCIOUS HOURS THAT I CHOSE TO SPEND
AND SLEPT AWAY THE REST OF THEM...
Lol, I am sooo going to begin every blog entry with a song now. Unless it's like serious stuff.
Picture day is TEH EVIL. Boooo!!! >:P Stupid pictures.
Aaaaaaaaaanyways. Umm. Nothing interesting happened today really...except for maybe something that I thought was GONE and BURIED came up again. May as well write about it, noone reads this anyways...
OK. When I was in 7th grade, I was in the freshman math class. It was not fun. I was unhappy the entire year. But anyways. One day, this random guy told me, "Could you please turn around? Your face is making me sick."
I laughed at him.
While I was laughing, he turned to one of the other guys and said, "She's laughing!
...he didn't care if he hurt me or not. In fact, he wanted
to. He tried
to. This happens to me ALL THE TIME. In 6th grade, my best friend stopped wanting to be associated with me at all. My mom constantly rips on me. "You have too many zits! You need to put your face medicine on more frequently!" There's more, but too many to list.
Which is why I'm having a hard time trusting people now
. See, with the freshmen (who are now seniors), I was being myself. With my 6th grade best friend, I was being myself. I'm always myself with my mom. And they don't like it. So, I end up acting a lot of the time.
...WAS TO BACKSTAB EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FRIENDS
AND LEAVE A VOICEMAIL MESSAGE TRYING TO MAKE AMENDS
ALL THE WHILE HOPING IT'D TURN OUT IN THE END
It all depends on how you look at things.
I had a good day today!! I got up at like 6:17 (which is early for me -- I had originally set my alarm for 6:00 and it took 17 mins to wake me up, lol) and drew Elijah Wood (HOTTT....not really, I just felt like typing that) and then I did random stuff. Went for a walk. Went to school to practice w/ the praise team. E is an evil key, btw. Trig was cool, Physics was OK, Chapel was TEH DREADED DRESS CODE TALK, Spanish was pretty fun, Typing was FUN!! I was the THIRD PERSON PICKED for a game!!! I haven't ever been that before! I got out of doing Paces for a while, and Art was cool -- I got to bug Jon, which is always fun. English was OK -- I got all most of my homework done during class b/c I was bored. YAY!! And then we had worship band practice, and it was fun. Afterwards, Jacob's dad played Orange Blossom Special with me and that was FUN!!!! That was SOOOO COOL!!! And then I saw my old buddy Joe. So I had a good day.Blergh...
OMG Today was like the worst day EVER!!! First of all, my mom's gonna make me wear makeup. She was like, "Either all the girls are really pretty or they wear makeup to cover up the red blotches!" I was soo mad. Then I did my Trig problem wrong -- I was supposed to do quadratic formula, and I did FOIL. Physics was SOOO BORING. Chapel was EVIL -- two thirds of the songs were in E, and I HATE E. And my D was out the entire time. Grr. And noone could hear me anyways. And then, in Spanish, it took me FOREVER and a HALF to find all my stuff. In typing, our team lost. In Paces, I was told that "Jacob worked seven years and then married Rachel, then he worked 7 more years. Joseph was Jacob's oldest son" which is W-R-O-N-G. In Art, she made me put a background. In English, it was SOO BORING! I really don't like having to do I-step stuff.
It all depends on how you look at things...
Nebuchanezzer (Or however it's spelled)
Anyways. He was STUPID!!!! There's the thing with Daniel, and he's like "Oh Daniel's God is the One True God!"
And then he throws Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nigo into the firey furnace...for OBEYING DANIEL'S GOD, who he had previously admitted was the ONE TRUE GOD!!!
Gaah. Stupid idiot.
That's my rant of the day.
Have a nice *insert applicable time span here*!
Driver's Ed driving...
I've only got two more drives left in Driver's Ed!! One is gonna be pretty easy...it's on roads that I've been driving on a lot recently. The other one is on the INTERSTATE. The dreaded interstate of DOOM. Yes. Eek.
Other than that, nothing noteworthy has happened...
MY CAMERA IS EVIL!!!! It's like older than me, and one has to hit the button like five or six times before it'll take. And then when the pictures are developed, they all have big red splotches on them. My two best ones -- ones that I was planning to use for FABA -- are all reddish. Grr. Not cool.
I don't think anything else happened recently.
One of my best friends, Claire Hockerman, was killed in a car crash.
For more information, google search Claire Hockerman. I don't feel up to typing it all right now.
Also, kudos to this guy
for doing a blurb on Claire and her family (her brother Nathan, age 5, was also killed, but her other brother, Paul, and her parents, Greg and Sherry, survived).
If you are a Christian, please pray for this family.
I have been shamefully neglecting this blog and will probably continue to do so.
I am currently in Drivers' Ed. And the only thing good about it is that I have made a friend -- her name's Hannah. And the instructor-guy is Christian. It was humerous -- he mentioned God today during class, and the entire room like sat up straighter because they weren't expecting it. He's a cool man. Reminds me of my math teacher, sort of.
We've watched some pretty strange movies -- one today about this guy who drove drunk and got in a random wreck. The one yesterday was about this church deacon who got so mad while driving that he shot another guy with a crossbow and killed him. The rest of them were like cartooney stuff.
And I got the first C that I've gotten in a loooong time on my second drive. That was not cool. My dad is not going to be happy...I have to be like perfect or something. Like, all straight A's, no demerits, room perfectly neat, drive perfectly the first time I'm sitting behind the wheel, treat my parents with respect, do all the chores...perfect. And when I'm not..."Why didn't you get the math award this year?" "Put your face medicine on -- your face is breaking out again." "Take your pills." "Pick up your room -- it looks disgraceful." "I don't believe your breathing is messed up. You're lying." "Why aren't you friends with some of the girls?" "Be perfect. Come on, why aren't you perfect? Why aren't you the way we want you to be? You can do better than this!"
Even when I'm trying as hard as I can, it's not enough. And I can't be perfect. I can't
. I'm only human. And I don't know how to drive well.
I just had to get that out.
HI!! Welcome to Brilliance in a Teacup!! (No, I don't know what the name means either. It just sounded cool...) This will be my blog about life in general. Yay.
Today I ran 5K. It just about killed me -- I still haven't recovered. It was really warm outside and everything. An old fat guy beat me. It was humiliating...and a no-win situation. See, I have asthma or something...and it was either: 1) Walk and hate myself, 2) Run and probably kill myself, or 3) Quit and have Dad kill me. I chose no. 2 because it was only "probably". And I didn't. I probably shouldn't have run though.
And, just for the fun of it, I'll put a random essay I wrote a while ago on here, to prove that there really is
brilliance in this teacup.
I'm going to start by making a simple statement: girls want to be princesses
. Oh, we don't want it consciously. We don't want to be in charge of a kingdom or anything. We just want to be princesses. I mean, have you ever known a little girl who hasn't, at least once, played "princess dress-up"? Every girl, somewhere in the depths of her heart, wants to be a princess
. And we will probably fall for the boy who acts as if he would love to be our prince. How do you do that? Well...that is the question, isn't it? You give her what she really wants (to a degree, of course). What does she want? (Besides to be a princess, of course.) A GIRL WANTS TO BE TREATED LIKE A PRINCESS.
It makes sense, doesn't it? If a girl wants to be
a princess, she's going to want to be treated
like one. Logically follows. Now the question is how to do this. Well, it's really not that hard. Just look around for what you can do for her. If she looks like she could definitely use an extra arm, help her out. Let her know that she is important to you. Treat her like you would a real princess. She is
one to God, so why not to you as well?
Only -- you'll see the following phrase a lot -- don't overdo it
. She doesn't want to be a GODDESS (or at least she shouldn't. If she does, well...she's probably not worth it). Don't WORSHIP her. She's not every
guy's princess. She's your
princess. And you are her
prince. Treat her like you know this. And if you go around trying to help her with everything, she's either going to utterly rebel or be utterly spoiled.
Chicas -- One of you ladies is probably out there going "What the heck? I don't wanna be treated like a princess!! I am a WOMAN!! I am TOUGH!! I am STRONG!!" I have two words to say to you: Yeah, right
. If you're ever treated like this, let me assure you -- it will completely melt your heart. Just you wait. And if you tell me that you've never played princess dress-up, then you're probably lying. If you're not, then you had a deprived childhood. A GIRL WANTS TO BE PURSUED.
This has a lot to do with treating her like a princess. You have to let her know
that you like her. Girls tend to be either clueless (like me) or uber-surmising (the girls who think that every guy likes her). The clueless ones really need a big hint. The uber-surmising ones get disappointed so many times that even as they surmise they're skeptical. So you let them know. Recently, I was forced to explain a note in which I had told a guy to tell me if he ever liked me. (I stated it rather cryptically, so it needed explaining.) I fully expected him to come back and say "No, I don't like you." He didn't. He gave me the opposite answer. And I had been utterly and completely clueless about it. And I would have remained so, if he hadn't said something. The uber-surmising ones are going to need reassuring that their surmising is correct.
But that's not all that pursuing is. Pursuing is making sure she knows
that she's important to you. Give her random little gifts. Write her random notes. Tell her that you love spending time with her (that will go a really long way with some girls). Pursuing is not walking up to a girl and "hitting on her". It is a delicate, relentless, continuous, tender chase
. It's not a one-time thing. It's the entire way you relate to her, always, all the time. You treat her like she's priceless, precious, irreplacable, amazing. You dash across the room to pick up her schoolbooks before someone else gets to it. You seek out her company over the company of your guy friends. (That really
goes a long
way.) When she forgets her lunch money, you give her your lunch. And remember, you have to tell
her that you like her. Remeber, I said that a pursuit is a chase
. You have to let her know that you're really serious about this.
Again, though, don't overdo it.
A girl wants and loves to be pursued...but don't call her at like 11:30 PM and expect her to be happy about it. And don't pursue her for the wrong reason. (Wrong reasons: sex, outward appearance, etc.) Pursue her because she is who God made her.
Pursue her for who she is inside
. (A side note here, since this is where it seems to fit -- don't expect her to be perfect, please? She's only human (unless you're dating an alien, which doesn't seem likely). She's probably under a lot of pressure from her parents to do stuff just so
and perfectly, and if you start doing that...it won't be a good thing.)
Chicas -- Being pursued is wonderful. It's the most amazing
feeling you can ever have. It's a feeling that's pretty much unparalleled. Look, if you're being pursued in the way I just told the guys to pursue you ladies, you are going to fall for him
(probably). So be forewarned. Chances are, he's a good guy if he's that sweet. And if you don't like the guy who's pursuing you, don't laugh at him
. Guys hate being ridiculed -- they're amazingly touchy creatures. So there's your warning. (And yes
, you contrary-minded ladies out there, you want to be pursued. You're just being difficult.) GIRLS WANT TO BE PROTECTED.
The prince is always rescuing the princess, right? From dragons, and ogres, and giants, and evil stepmothers, and all sorts of other things? So you should protect your princess! You should protect her from stuff that you're afraid of. I, for example, have a great fear of wasps and thunderstorms. (I know, I'm strange.) And there was a wasp one day in the cafeteria. I happened to mention that I was afraid of wasps. A couple minutes later, one of the guys I was sitting with quietly got up, took his lanyard, and started to stalk the wasp. And while the Wasp-Stalker is not my Prince, I did
like him for a long time. I also see no prospect of falling in love with one of the other guys at the table, who was trying really hard to convince me that the wasp was on top of my head. Also, my Prince agrees with me about thunderstorms, which doesn't really do anything to protect me but sure makes me feel a whole lot better. So, sympathize with her fears. Don't laugh at them. Do something about them if you can.
Also, protect her from abuse, both verbal and physical. If someone's teasing or tormenting her, stand up for her. (This goes a long way with a lot of girls.) If you know that her parents beat her or abuse her in other ways, get outside help. If someone insults her, defend her. Protect her.
I told you that you'd be hearing this a lot. Don't overdo it.
You can't protect her from herself, and it won't help any if you try. Some things she's going to have to learn the hard way. If you see her going down a path that's potentially deadly (drugs, alchohol, smoking, etc.) I would say to interfere but don't chain her. Try to talk her out of it, but if she won't see reason, you're going to have to let her go.
Chicas -- Let your man know when he is being overprotective, but let him protect you. It makes him feel really good to protect someone. And I know someone out there is saying, "HEY!! I am WOMAN! I am STRONG! I don't need protection
!" Oh, but you do. You need protection. Someday there will be a time when you need to be protected, and you will wish you had let your Prince protect you. So beware. And hey, being protected is wonderful
. Nothing is more alluring and heartwarming than having someone fight for you. Hey, I'm still high from the time one of my friends chewed out one of my other friends because he wasn't treating me right. It's wonderful. A GIRL WANTS TO BE INCLUDED.
OK, guys. Imagine this. You're going with your girl and her group to the mall or something. You're the only guy. The entire time, all they talk about is makeup, PMS, and hot actors. How would feel? Out of your league? A little left out?
Unfortunately, girls get this same treatment all the time. As the only girl in my particular group, I oftentimes get immensely left out of conversations about X-BOX, videogames, and paintball. And while I have learned a lot about these topics, I would much prefer talking about something that I actually know
about. Hey, girls can talk about some pretty strange stuff! I can discuss Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, the Matrix (the first one) and the outside of the universe relatively fluently. So find out what she can talk about, and talk about it! Books and movies are pretty much inexhaustable resources, there are so many of them. And if she doesn't do books and movies, there's music, drawing, and a lot of other things.
Also -- and this is just a general thing, to be used on girls that you don't LIKE-like as well as your princess -- invite the girl that hangs out with your group to stuff, please? I mean, I hang out with a group of guys. I never get invited to their houses (except one's, and then only when he needs an extra for a videogame). I haven't been to a birthday party since fourth grade. (Honestly.) And let me tell you, it hurts
when you know that your best friend is having a party and you're not going to be invited just because you're a girl
. (And there are ways to get around the slumber party thing.) The highlight of my year was when my Prince invited me to a thing for his church. That was amazing.
Chicas -- you may or may not have this problem, but I'm pretty sure that all of us have been hurt because we "felt left out" at one point or other in our lives. If you say you haven't, you're either lucky or lying. And I know those that have felt left out will agree with me -- it hurts.
And last but definitely not least, A GIRL WANTS TO BE CAPTIVATING.
Every girl wants to be thought beautiful. No exception. And we love to be told so (unless we're trying to keep our egos down to a manageable size). So, if you think she's beautiful, tell her so. Read "The Steward and the King" chapter of the book The Return of the King
and find the speech where Faramir tells Eowyn that she's beautiful. Be like that when you tell your princess that she's beautiful. Be eloquent. Don't just mumble, "You're beautiful." Get her attention first and say it loudly and clearly. Or write her a note and tell her. I recieved a note like that from my Prince the other day. Let me tell you, I'm still amazingly happy from that note. So tell her that she's beautiful
. And if she's not beautiful, she'll probably grow on you.
Chicas -- Here's something that I know
we all agree on. We all want to be beautiful. And we all know that being told so will be wonderful. So no arguments allowed.
So, in conclusion, treat your girl like a princess, and you may just "get her". Good luck!