Tuesday, November 29, 2005

The dating thing cont.

For some reason, I have in the past few days become totally converted to the Blake view on dating.. (You'll have to go to Hannah's blog to get to Trevor's because I don't have his URL memorized.) At this point, friendships are way more important me than a dating relationship. If the guy I like asked me out, I would tell him to go think about what he's doing, if not outright tell him no. (be forewarned, you) I value that friendship (if you leave the "r" out of "friendship" it becomes a very funny word) way too much to risk jeapordizing it. I know that there's not very much chance that I will actually marry someone that I know in high school (I mean, think about it. I'm 15. It's about 5-10 years before I'll get married, if not more. That's a pretty long time) so it'd be better not to have to hurt anyone by dating them and then having to break up with them. *shrug*

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

The dating thing...

Continuing on with all the stuff written about dating by the Blake brothers...

There is also an area in between dating and not dating that is very iffy -- it carries all the emotions and stuff of dating but none of the actual commitment. This can be both a bad thing and a good thing. It can be bad because, if one of the people turns out to be a total jerk (I'm not saying you are...in fact, you're kind of the complete opposite...[and if you have noo clue what I'm talking about, I probably don't mean you]) then when they get tired of it, they don't have anything really keeping them there...I mean, I look at dating or being in a dating relationship as being at least a small bit of commitment. Not like marriage or anything, but it is a commitment.

It can also be a good thing. For one, you have more time to spend with God if you're not always going out with that person. (What is going out anyways? My youth group can't really figure it out...) You still know that you are extremely special to someone, but they don't take time away from God (unless you have Problems in your thought life). Maybe this works for me because...well...IHATEPHONESSTOPSAYINGWORDS, and also I'm not really allowed to call boys (besides for homework stuff and unless it's Brandon) and he doesn't have IM, but hey. Secondly, if you're really, really determined to stay friends with the person, just friends and nothing more, even though you "like" them, it generally eliminates some of the other problems (i.e. the physical temptation, the "sharing too much" [although that does happen occasionally, but hey, I'm working on it...], and most of Trevor's harms, actually). Thirdly, it also immensely confuses people, which is rather amusing to watch. Fourthly, you get to know that particular person better and find out whether or not you would ever want to date/court (and even potentially marry) that person. (NO, you, I'm not trying to insinuate something.)

So...yeah. Just wanted add that. :D

Have a nice day!! :D

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Penguin Tales

Okeyday, so there were two very funny things that happened to my penguin last week.

First of all, I already told y'all that Jon Benson had stolen my penguin, no? He had tod me that he had burned it, and then Liz benson tried to tell me the same thing...so on Tuesday, he brought this bag of ASHES and gave it to me during before homeroom. It was soo funny because he handed me this bag...which had "PENGUIN" written on it...it very nearly fooled me because Joel (Jon's brother) came up and said, "You wouldn't believe how hot we had to get the coals before it would burn!" which kinda scared me. But I eventually got it back, because Emily Helmer noticed it in Jon's bag. Do you know, that's actually the first real prank anyone's ever pulled on me...that is, the first one that actually required doing something...anyways.

Then on Wednesday (I think) my friend Tony took the Penguin from my locker for some random reason. Then he gave it to my friend Jacob, who put it in his locker. Then he tried to make me give him a dollar because Tony owed him money. It made for one of the more humorous arguments I've had in quite a while.

Monday, November 14, 2005


Welp, currently I've got half of the Benson siblings after me...

But anyways. Yeah, it's been a very random week so far. I think. I don't know. Yeah, my brain turned off at like seven tonight...but anyways. I watched Episode Three on Saturday at Brandon's house...got IM'd by Matt Trilus (which was immensely disturbing)...and did some other random stuff...and on Sunday we had church (lol, for the LONGEST time I couldn't remember what I did Sunday morning...I feel like an idiot now)...and then we had relatives...and then I talked to Jon and/or Liz for the better part of five hours (I think...I talked to Jon for something like 2 hrs, not sure how long I talked to Liz, but it was a while)...and Jon has my penguin...he had better remember it...and this is a really loooong sentance...I like it...I think the rest of my blog is going to be it...soo, I don't think anything exciting happened...nope, didn't...well, that's it...goodbye...

Thursday, November 10, 2005


I feel like posting a song.

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me

Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life

I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory


You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful

OHH, ohohoh and andandand I got the fiddler part!!! Sooooo excited!! Can't wait to start learning the music!!!